this brilliant creation. If you imagine it as like a — a glowing ball of white light — Like, you are an orb. And the layers of experience and the world that you live in
and the voices in your head and your ego are like little
clusters of black plaque that have lined
this beautiful orb of glowing light, so much to the point
that there’s film and there’s dust all over it. And so when we’re trying
to access this beautiful, bountiful, like, inner wisdom and soul and spirituality, whatever you want to call it,
we have these little lifelines that we can use to share
our words and our stories. And it’s talking. And it’s touching. And it’s seeing. And it’s writing. And it’s everything
that we’ve learned about interacting and engaging. And I think it’s very,
very powerful to know how to tell your own story ’cause if you have access
to what you actually think and who you actually are, it can be
a very empowering thing. In my own life,
I spend a lot of time writing. I try to write every single day. I get up in the morning,
and I write a couple of pages. It’s like Julia Cameron
and the morning pages. It’s just chicken scratch. Like, some mornings,
I’m writing, like, an ode to how much
I want my coffee. Like, and I —
And, like, it’s so bad. I’m like, “Coffee, coffee,
coffee, coffee, coffee. Am I done yet? Did I get there?” Like, I’m just
whining on the page. And other mornings,
it’s to-do lists ’cause I wake up
in such a, like, urgency and such a, like,
adrenaline-fueled state. I’m like, “Oh, my God.
I have so much to do. I’m not gonna be able to do it.
I’m really panicked. Oh, my God. Blah, blah, blah.”
And so I’m just like — I just literally
write a to-do list. And what it does is it
kind of cleanses your brain. It’s like just a little wash. It just gets some of that junk
and that garbage off. And then I get to think a little
clearer through the day. And just like in swimming, where I might have a sh-tty day and then an okay day and then a much better day, it’s this rhythm
of getting into the flow. And when it finally clicks, it’s because I committed
to the act of creating. -Mm-hmm.
-And then after carving and whittling a little bit and just writing
these god-awful essays that no one would want
to read, including myself, I finally arrive at a moment
where my voice is clearer. It’s more lucid. I’m fluent. And so, for me, when you see me scribbling
all the time, it’s just because I want to have
access to my words. And the more that I scribble,
the less I have to think about “Should I write?
When should I write? What does writing look like? Do I use a Word document? Do I use a Moleskine?
How do I do this? Is someone thinking of me?
Should I do it now? How about later?
No, you shouldn’t do it now.” Like, I just get rid of that
by doing it as much as I can and so that I know that whenever
I have a thought or something that feels
like it’s good or feels like I want to
write about it, I have permission
to write about it because it’s just a habit.